but i get the strangest feeling

N Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i cannot take the stress that is piling up on me.

there's like so many things to do and so little time to finish. i need to spend my time wisely. let's see.

tomorrow i'll wake up before tweleve, skip class, go over to city hall to get the films then head over to east coast again to snap snap snap. at night i should meet up with ferooze to discuss about stupid C&E assignment one.

thursday i'll go to school, finish up on the C&E assignment then stay in school till god-knows-what-time to develop those shit photos.

and, how about my bonus assignment ? i think i should get it done now before i cry when i cannot finish everything when its due on friday. blah.

and and and, i didn't lie. hrmpff.

11:59:00 PM

N Monday, October 30, 2006

don't frown,
smile because the whole world is smiling with you.

what a day.
one after the other. god just had to shock me twice a day. haha.

but nevertheless, :]

sighs. somehow,
i'm feeling sad, i'm feeling happy.
actually, i dont know how am i feeling.
i'm having mixed emotions.
and i wish.

nine to three afterwhich six to ten.
what a busy day.
goodnight !

12:05:00 AM

N Saturday, October 28, 2006

i miss the good old days.

was reading all the testimonials in friendster and it made me miss the times in IJ so much. things were much more simpler then. i laughed, i teared. can we get back in time ?

we spend our everyday together back then. we share the same time-table, share the same friends, share the same topics etc etc. we were much more closer. now that we've widen our social circle and we've split up into different school, different courses, we are busy with our own lives. why can't i get back to that familiar classroom ?

someone told me each time she sees me, i look not as happy as before. probably i've grown and learn to be more serious. life is not as carefree as before. IJ years are the happiest moments in my life. :)

i miss those laughters and fun i had.
i really really miss. :(

i didn't know sherry can be quite sweet.
i didn't know some of my friends can be so funny.
i didn't know i was stupid and full of nonsense.
hahahaha.

well, we have to move on with our lives.

but i wish certain things didn't have to change.

3:30:00 AM

N Monday, October 23, 2006

fuck it.

i want to shut myself till i'm done with this fucking assignment and fucking abcdefg !

just when everything seems alright, - ------- ------ ----------
everything just have to fall apart and come crashing at the same time.

and,
i'm sorry peizhen.

2:05:00 AM

N Thursday, October 19, 2006

we're different

let's set our priorities right.
time-table is out. it's back to square one.
no time for this and that. stressing out on this and that. it will be busy busy busy just like before.

this may be the best way out. :]

i love sem one although we were all like crazy kids but having to know that we have each other make it seems alright. we were mad but we had fun. all it matters is my design mates. they are the one who keeps me going through all these.

people, we're back to dark room. the place where everything amazingly happened;

that's where our friendship all started. :)

there's so many nice movies and i want to catch them all. and i still haven't caught world trade centre. :(
i guess i won't be able to catch any movies anytime soon. ohwells.

now, it's time to take it easy.
i'm getting tired.

i love her ;

i love cherine ann yew mei ling.

i appreciate what you've done. thank you for this friendship. i know we've been through many ups and downs. we bitched and complained about each other but at the end of it, we're back together and you know you've got me no matter what.

5:04:00 PM

N Saturday, October 14, 2006

without you

what a hectic week.
i almost died ;

died of workload, stress and having two sleepless night.

although the final product is like crap and i've already gotten 20% deducted from my work, i'm glad it's all over. but this is just the beginning.

four days off from school next week and this is giving me the chance to slack. this is bad, so bad. i need to get pictures taken and get the draft layout out by friday otherwise i'll just suffer another two sleepless night again.

and thanks to those who helped out with my stupid assignment. i've never failed to trouble you people. =)

now, can someone please control me a little and get me to start on my work ? ):

1:34:00 AM

N Sunday, October 08, 2006

i can't

i'm still wondering if i've entered the right course. even if the interest is there but whats the point when the ability is not.

i struggle.
and i can't afford things which i really need for my course.

i told standley i'm gonna jump over to nursing in sem two. i think i should. hahahaha.
then there won't be so much stress, so much depression to go through.

binbin is such a sweetie.

Boozey Save me from this abysmally mundane existence says:
u want 2 be butch ur biz
Boozey Save me from this abysmally mundane existence says:
as long u happy
Boozey Save me from this abysmally mundane existence says:
i happy

hahahahaha. this is so random.

i met two of my friends whom i haven't been in touch just now and we were talking about the past. how time really flies. i miss those times. things has really changed and people changed. somehow, we just can't get back to the past. in the next few years to come, maybe i'll blog again on how "i miss those times" which refers to whats happening now. haha. well, we should just cherish every single moment. it's not like we'll know when we'll just depart from the world right ? i can never imagine someone close to my heart just leaving me for good. ):

i should really quit blogging at night.

i need to save up already. i've got another target to reach and its now further away from it. but i know i can replace the money back. afterall, it's just money. :) money can buy you many things but it can't buy you many things too. get it ? i'll scrimp and ~~not go shopping.~~ window shop. hehe.

okayy, im really tired but i can't go to bed. roar ! i hope i can wake up on time tomorrow and finish up what i have to produce on monday. :)
yawns. help. i have to wake up in five hours.
goodbye.

3:47:00 AM

N Saturday, October 07, 2006

let's reflect

it's how funny when you can meet a stranger on the bus twice, going out and going home. it's so amazing how life works. each of us leads a different life. if i'm not me, i wonder what kind of life i would go through instead.

every morning when i board the bus, i see the same people (unless i miss the bus i usually take) and my eyes never fail to not look at each and every one of them and i'll start guessing what are they going through in life. i want to try and have a taste of others life, really.

i love my mummy. she's the best mother one can ask for but i know i have been taking advantage of her being so nice. i may be rude at times and may even show my disagreements with her or what so ever, but deep down inside, i do know my wrongs but its just that i'm unable to express everything out.

i remembered during self-awareness camp, we had to write a card to someone we would like to thank but eventually, the card did not reach my mum. haha.

although there are times whereby she can be real unreasonable and stubborn which is totally intolerant but,

i still love you mummy. :)
you're the only one i can really fall back on and trust.

friends come and go, how many actually stays. throughout my eighteen years, nobody made me believed there is such a thing called "best friend". everyone bitch about each other because they can't stand certain things about that person but at the end of the day, the friendship is still there. complaining about your close friends is still acceptable but telling tales about them is unacceptable, seriously.

-roll eyes-

i have so much to say, so much to speak up, so much to clear.
~~but im not gonna care anymore.~~

i'm true, no doubts.

oh wells, this is just a reflective post. i hope i don't offend anyone or cause any uninvited troubles. save them for yourself. these are just my thoughts.

i'm tired and i'm dead. i have yet to come out with a story for my movie poster and yet to think of what to do or take. all i think of is having fun. argh. i'm still in lalaing mood. save me.

i better go to bed and come out with an idea tmr or thats the end of me.
goodnight.

4:28:00 AM

N Thursday, October 05, 2006

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

MUMMY !

6:49:00 PM

N Tuesday, October 03, 2006

they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

my sleeping time is all wrong.

wrong
wrong
wrong !

i couldn't sleep till three plus. thank god cherine's sms didn't wake me up. throughout the night, my mind was occupied and i just couldn't stop thinking.

i'm still upset.

since the incident has already become a thing in the past, i keep telling myself, i won't bring it up. but deep inside, i know i can't take it lying inside.

bleh.

i'm going to bed now when everyone else is going to school. life is going downhill. ):

i shouldn't be blogging so much.
blogging kills.

my next entry will be a happy one, i promise. :]
just don't come asking what happened.

1:52:00 PM

don't look back in anger, i heard you say

the first day of school wasn't good at all. for the next three weeks, it's going to be a drag and it's fear everywhere. roar. i'm not happy at all. please let time pass faster.

on the other hand, i'm glad i came out for dinner with mingjie and cherine. it was another night of telling session. it caught me thinking and reflecting but it put me in anger and disappointment.

i'm speechless.

it takes times to build mutual trust between two person but all it takes, is a second to destroy it.
sometimes what you see or what you heard, may not be the truth.

what's friendship when it was all so easy to fall apart.
don't worry, i won't do the same to you.

when in doubt, always ask. :]

everything is left up straight from the heart
tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up, where do i start
cause i can't turn to you when it all falls apart

it's two am. time for bed. abcdefg.

1:39:00 AM

N Sunday, October 01, 2006

such a beautiful disaster

chalet was great !
bbq was a success !
beds were comfy !
we took plenty of photos !

the only thing was, tng had to choked the toilet bowl with her shit because during bbq, all she did was order people around to cook for her and pretend she was going to cook but in fact she just take the tong and pose infront of the pit. hahahaha. and we got ourselves a warning letter for making too much noise so we were all pretty restricted. haha.

but i still had fun all in all ! :D

the very next day i met up with my polymates. we went for a game of bowling. it was fun fun fun ! we were all trying to catch up with each others scores. hahahaha. later in the night we had card games. and i finally had my very first snowskin mooncake. :D i have nice friends ! they helped me satisify my cravings for mooncakes. hahahahaha. but i want more ! ):
and so, we went on playing, playing and playing and last bus ? gone. hahaha.

we have stepped into a new month. i hope the month of october will be a good one. (: tonight will be my last night of enjoyment. its then back to school, back to school. let's all hope school will be slack and i'll adapt to the new people around me.

i wish holidays could have been longer.

i still want to go tanning again and do plenty of other things !

i just wish holidays wouldn't end.

3:42:00 AM